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Pain

Look at this
Slits across my wrist
Isn't it a twist
To see me like this?

Images in my head
Make me wish now I was dead
Can't hold on anymore
Inside I'm all torn

Friends don't understand
Think that its a slight of hand
How could they know
That the pain begins to grow

Heart beating fast
No chance I'm going to last
Don't you remember my past

Psychatrists all said there was something I hide
The rules I never did bide
A little girl inside

But she never comes out
She's just me when i scream and shout
Why do all you people doubt the words that come out of my mouth?

But I'm still here
Never disapeared
Can't go away because I want to stay

Just sometimes I can't stand the pain
Like never ending rain
Beating inside my brain
Like metal agaisnt a wooden cane

Never ceasing to make me scream
It always shatters my dreams
Making my brain into cream

So this is the way the pain creeps up
Making me want the rain to stop
Beating my head with a metal cane
Horrible images begin there reign

Written by [Ego Diligo Tu]

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Suicide Letter


Heres my suicide letter I write to you
The ink just smeared black and blue
Blood is there; do you see it to?
Do you think this suicide letter is for you?
That this is your heart that's stopped beating
It's your muscles that are twitching
Your lungs stopped breathing
Your blood on the ground
Nothing else around?
This suicide letter is to all of you
Who thought the world couldn't get better
Your right, it can't.
This is to all those people who thought they didn't matter
Your right, you didn't.
This to all those people who thought they were losers
Your right, you are
This is my suicide letter to the world
Nothing can change for the better
Nothing can stay the same
But nothing can change for the worse
Things just change
They never say why or when
They just go
They dont give reasons or answers
And they never will
This is my suicide letter to you
The smeared ink my tribute to you
See the changes here and there
No explaination quite clear
So take my suicide letter dear
Take it from my dead hands and hold it near
No that I did nothing here
Because no one can do anything
Because it all changes to fast
So take my suicide letter
Watch the ink change stages with your tears
Sadness, anger, then despair
You can't belive I'm no longer there
So here have this letter with smeared ink
Take it and hold it till my body begans to stink
Dont bury or burn me
Let me stand out
I want to rot
Let the world see how I changed
Because this world
Is changing us all
So whenever you hear my silent call
Read my suicide letter written on my wall
In blood and smeared blue and black ink
Deep within it starts to sink
To forever stay in that fateful room
Where I killed my self on that sunny afternoon

Written by [Ego Diligo Tu]

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Braille


Like braille,
I read your face,
As my hand gently slides across it.
I’m blind to see,
Your true potential.

Like braille,
I read the deep facets of my soul.
So easy to feel for,
So easy to want to see,
But I’m blind by your disguise.

Like braille,
I can feel what you feel.
I’m blind, but now I can see,
Who you really are.

Written by [BlEedINg bLAcK ShaRDs]

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You mean the world to me

You mean the world to me,
I don't show it so you can't see.
I really do love you,
And yet I feel as though I hurt you.
I always wanna be together,
Holding you in my arms forever.
Shielding you from the world of pain,
Hopefully my efforts will not be in vain.
I love to stare deep into your eyes,
Because I always reallize,
That I only care about your love.
I see you as my angel from above.
I never say my feelings out loud,
That's because my mind is a dark hazy cloud.
But one day I'll finaly show you,
Exactly how much I love you.

Written by [rednaxelasille]

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Empty House of Broken Dreams

Sitting in this empty house of broken dreams
Where life, as I knew it, wasn't as it seemed
Totally excluded from the other girls
They acted as if I was from another world
But they never even talked to me
And when they did, I screwed up
Then I was forgotten
They didn't even bother to know who I was
And I was a thing in the past
But my pain just seemed to last
Things seemed to stick to me
And I'd make sure I wouldn't forget who I use to be
Use to beat myself up real bad
It was only cause I was mad
Mainly at myself
I couldn't do anything right
Despite the times when I would follow the light
And school wasn't better
People treated me as if I was a beginner
Or just beat me up as if I was a kid
Or treated me as if I was nothing
Cursed at in the face like I was dirt underground
Sometimes people wondered why I took it sitting down
And I'd wonder too
Then I'd get home
Things there were never how they were suppose to be
Fighting and arguing between my mom and step dad
While me and my brothers would peek through the door to see
And we'd just wish our mom would get along with someone
So we wouldn't feel so bad like we had no one
But my brothers never understood it
Instead I took it all in for them so they could never know it
And my mom would explain our family's position
But always told me nothing else was to be said about it
And so at times, I'd think of just running away
So I wouldn't have to go and take all of this every day
But I couldn't have the guts to run
When my heart said I had nothing and no one
But I'd dump everything on Ryan
Sometimes I think, on the inside, he's crying
Cause I go and tell him everything and all my problems
Making everything his problem as well
And then I'd feel bad
Than I'd want to beat myself up again cause I was mad
For telling all that stuff to him
And now, outside, the sun grows dim
As I hope these memories disappear and never come back to me
As I walk away from the empty house of broken dreams

Written by [New Years Revolution]

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Untitled

As I sit in my room, I sulk and cry.
I think to myself what if this, what if that.
Now he is gone, I am lost, incomplete.
I can not seem to find myself within these tears.
Then I realize theres no way I could have changed what happend, everything happens for a reason.
So now I look on the bright side and think to myself its not worth crying over.
The sun came out and dried up all my tears.
I found a beautiful girl laying on the floor, then I realize it's me.
I found myself, no longer lost, incomplete,crying or sulking but happy.

Written by [.lets.kiss.]

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Not an Angel

People see her as beautiful, graceful.
Some define her as an angel, sent from heaven to earth.
She's perfect everyone thinks.
But inside she hurts like everyone else, but worse.
They all misunder stand her. It kills her inside, she has lost everything.
She is the only one left. No family or friends.
At night she cries herself to sleep.
She thinks of suicide, but she knows she will just hurt even more people.
Then she realizes that all she needs is a friend,
let everything out and she soon would feel better.

Written by [.lets.kiss.]

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This Way


Slit my throat
Bind my wrists
Cut me up and down
Trace my veins with razor blades
Swirling all around
Make my mind a pool of lies
Take my hand and make me cry
Watch as tears spill from these eyes
Silent shadows
Falling upon living corpses
Watch as they come for you
You slit there throats
Bound there wrists
Cut them up and down
Traced there veins with razor blades
Swirling all around
Made their minds a pool of lies
Took their hand and made them cry
Watched as tears spilt from their eyes
Now no more
We have you here
Time to feel the pain
Time to let us play
We’ll slice your throat
Bind your wrists
Cut you up and down
Trace your veins with razor blades
Swirling all around
Make your mind a pool of lies
Take your hand and make you cry
Watch as tears fall from your eyes
We are ruthless

As were you
We want to see you scream
Want to watch that blood pour out
So every night when we sleep we whisper
Slice my throat
Bind my wrists
Cut me up and down
Trace my veins with razor blades
Swirling all around
We remember when
You made our minds a pool of lies
Took our hands and made us cry
Watched as every tear we ever cried fell from our eyes
And we hate you for it
And now we love to do it too
But not to you
To ourselves
And you love that you did this
That you made us this way
The way that every night before we sleep we
Slice our throats
Bind our wrists
Cut us up and down
Trace our veins with razor blades
Swirling all around

Written by:[Ego Diligo Tu]

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Numb

Your hearts broken,
Shattered to bits.
Your mind's choking,
Run out of wits.

Your feet are dragging,
Through the mud.
On your wrists snagging,
Razor meets blood.

Hanging on the wall,
Clock hands strum.
No pain remains,
Your body goes numb.

Sitting on the grass,
Your name carved in stone.
Now in the end of the end,
You're no longer alone.

Copyright ©2005 Christopher Scott Kahle

Written by [tenshi-ryuu]

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A Long Goodbye

A million roses couldn’t express my love for you
But as each one dies, so does a part of me
I’m counting down the days until the end
Waiting, watching, alone

Staring into the waters below
I’m missing each and every day I spent with you
I wish I could reach out and hold you
For once more in my life
Please, please, please don’t die

Lying awake, this is driving me insane
Everyone’s gathering around waiting
Those tears running down their faces
Are the shattered hearts flowing out of them
Wake up, get up, stay up
Won’t let you fall back down again

I’m trying to find a reason to let you go
But I can’t fight what I feel
I can only try to forget my dreams and thoughts
I’m already hurting inside

We’ll fight this sickness together
And no matter what happens, I’ll be there for you
I know you may be gone forever
Remember when you were here you changed our lives
Please don’t make me say goodbye

I will be your release
Be my guiding angel for just a while
Wait for us at the end of the tunnel
When we leave this world too
There are only a few more roses
Maybe they’ll hold on just for you
I’ll hold your hand until the end
I’ll let you fade away in my arms
You were my soul, my love, my life

written by [*~Melso~*]

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Been Through It

I saw the fight
Felt the blood
Got caught in the storm
And drowned in the flood
I fell into the darkness
Burned in the fire
Felt the pain of love
And the lust of desire
I've been on my knees
Begged for any strength
I've fallen short
And lived the length
I've stared at the gun
Had a brush with death
I've sold my soul
And stole my next breath
I've been through it all
I've lived and died
I've been through the ups and downs
I've smiled and cried
You can take away everything
But you can't take my past
You can feed off my pain
But that too won't last.

Written by [Slaughter™]

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The Drug

It starts;
This roller-coaster of physical emotion,
This many part rythmic heartbeat.
I close my eyes and breath in deep,
Abosrbing my drug even as it racks my body
On its own.
I lose track of all other noise,
Feeling, smell; totally lost to this world
I float high above on wings
That strike the air, keeping the time
With everything.
I feel it inside of me,
Hammering, and I jerk with it
In an almost sporadic pounding,
But everything; everyone; moves together,
Not a dance, but a movement -
A movement to the drug
Music.

Written by [Your Favorite Stranger]

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Ironic

You ask me why
And I just cant tell you
That this pain inside
Is all I can do
I Try and hide
Far away from you
But deep inside this is all i can do
Tear me up and slip on out
Watch the sky turn to a deep dark red
As blood pours out
And you realize im dead
You can't belive that you really did this
Once again you hurt me inside
Tore me up and made me cry
But this time It was to much
For me to handle
I can't take this pain and hate I have
You hurt me again and this is the end
I'm out of this world
And still in pain
Far away not wanting it to happen again
But who would have thought you cared?
Would say I hurt you
And made you cry
But I know that it is all a lie
But isn't it ironic?
That your so sweet to me
When at night it's me that you seek
To hurt me inside
So isn't it ironic?
That I'm who you rape?
When you say to people you love me
What is the things at night all a mistake?
So I guess I'm Just Ironic
In your strange little world
To be your lover and still yet a whore

Written By:[Ego Diligo Tu]

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Rape

See me here
Crying deep inside I'm gone
You held me close
My world it spun
You kilt me from the inside out
Made me hate myself
Ran around and started to shout
Nothing in my mind but doubt
That I could have stoped this
Made you leave me alone
Maybe slit you open bound your wrist
But I didn't I layed there and struggled
Screamed out in pain
Heard my shouts bounce off walls
Like drops of rain
No one even notices
When I disapear
That I came back
Broke down and in tears
No one cared you had hurt me
And made me feel abused
They all asked though if I gave you that bruise
Said I was whore, a hooker, and a slut
When really what you did
Made me anything but
It made you a bastard
And me a poor girl
But no one will ever know
That you raped me until my whole body
Soul
And mind was sore

Written by [Ego Diligo Tu]

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Do you?

Do you have any idea how much your words hurt?
It's not like I choose this.
Oh yes.
I woke up this morning and I thought,
"I know, I'll slice my flesh to ribbons."



Do you think I do not get enough shit already?
It's not like I haven't heard it before.
Oh yes.
Every word you speak is new to my ears.
"What's that? It's bad for me? Oh, I didn't know."



Do you have the slightest notion of how it feels?
It's not like it's a pleasure thing in the sexual sense.
Oh yes.
I get off on cutting myself, on hurting myself.
"Mmm, yes, give me more, feel the pain."



Do you understand that it's not about death, but life?
It's not like I'm trying to kill myself when I cut.
Oh yes.
Each scar is a failed suicide attempt.
"I must really suck at killing myself, to have failed so often."



Do you realize how fragile I am around anyone?
It's not like I'm invincible.
Oh yes.
I can listen to you berate me for hours, and still take more.
"You are right. I am a horrible, selfish person. I see it now."



Do you realize how strong I am after everything?
It's not like I'll fall apart if you speak to me.
Oh yes.
I am a weakling and I cannot handle a conversation.
"Please, don't hurt me, I must be breakable to have survived for so long."



Do you realize that I am finding my own spiritual path?
It's not like I need you to guide me.
Oh yes.
I am a bad little Christian boy who has turned his back on God.
"I'm so sorry. I have sinned. You can burn me at the stake."



Do you realize that I only want your love?
It's not like anything you're doing is helping me.
Oh yes.
We've spent an hour discussing my issues and I feel so loved.
"Thank you for showing me how much you care."

[this user is dead]

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Un-named

You don't know who I am
You made me crazy
You think you do
But you made me like this

If you knew what I went to
With physciatrists and shrinks
You wouldn't do it

Thought I could escape
Get a new chance
A new world
But I'll always be hated
Wherever I go
Your hate will follow me
A hopeless puppy
Turning at the last second
To bite

I hate it
I hate you
I hate everything
This is why I do it
Why I scream and shout
Why I throw tantrums
I should have long out-grown

You made me
Like this
And this I'll always be
Until the day I die

Why wait
Why not give up now

Now you see
What you did to me
When I'm lying here
No pulse
Dead
Because of you.

Written by [omgOMEGA]

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Untitled


Every bit of life,
That creeps upon this earth,
Deserves justice, kindness,
From the moment of its birth.

So I wonder why,
Why do they have the right?
To break this rule,
And to break it with all their might.

They do not realise,
Just how much it hurts,
When people shove you, shout at you,
And push your face in the dirt.

The pain was so bad,
It pierced me, like a dart,
And it was not just were they kicked,
But it hurt in my heart.

They called me a baby,
And my soul began to crack,
My lips began to quiver,
They said, “Look! She’s turning back!”

Then they said,
“That baby is the ugliest I’ve ever seen!
Then the tears came falling,
Why were they so mean?

That just started them off again,
Again with the horrible abuse,
These horrible words just hurt so much,
But what was the use?

Why should I fight?
When they’d soon be back for more,
They wouldn’t just throw away the key,
When they couldn’t get through the door.

I could not stand it anymore,
They were driving me mad,
The taunts, the pain the suffering,
I wanted to hurt them so bad.

But I could not stoop to their level,
They said I was too good,
So I just tried to ignore them,
But they were hungry vultures, and I was food.

There were so many others,
So why pick on me?
I did not understand,

Why could they not let me be?

The teachers realised I had changed,
I was nothing like I was,
I did not listen in class,
Not even when they got cross.

In the end they got fed up,
And sent me away,
To the headmistress,
Until the end of day.

I just sat there in my seat,
While she questioned me through out,
I replied with shrugs and nods,

But she still did not shout.

She eventually got bored with me,
And then had a sudden thought,
She asked if it was bullying,
I started crying, distraught.

She knew that this must be the case,
But who were fish when I was bait?
I knew I could not tell her,
They’d be waiting by the gates.

I stared at the floor,
Examining my shoes,
She sighed and sent me home,
With a letter about the recent news.

My mum was waiting out side,
She saw my bloodshot eyes,
She hugged me and fondled my hair,
Bet she wished she hadn’t let this gone by.

The very next day the dreaded happened,
The bullies and I were called for,
To the office of the headmistress,
Were I had been the day before.

She gave a great long speech,
About how it was wrong to tease,
The bullies were getting more anxious,
I saw fear in their eyes when they knocked their knees.

They knew they were in for it,
And they knew i had told,
From that day, the bullying,
Was even more cold.

They were still horrible after that,
If I told anyone they said I’d dread,
What would follow, so I obeyed,
But I did write it in my diary, which my mum read.

She told me she had done it,
And insisted on coming into school,
The bullies laughed and jeered,
They said I needed her to help me crawl.

My eyes began to water,
So my mum walked faster past,
Past the bullies and their sly insults,
I wish I were just as fast.

However much she tried,
They just would not stop,
I don’t think she realised,
Just how bad it got.

Everyday I came home with bruises,
Cuts and in tears,
She did not understand,
It was caused by bully’s jeers.

So in the end, I had to move,
Make a fresh start in another school,
One where they would not tease me,
Where the children were not so cruel.

It was a long time ago,
But inside I still feel the pain,
And if I’m not careful
It may start again.

One way to sort it out
To keep it all away
It may be drastic, that’s for certain,
But I can’t stand another day.

So I look around the house
Find a key
Take a weapon to my head
And good bye me.

By [omgOMEGA]

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Untitled


Feeling bad
Don’t know why
Don’t want to know
I’d rather lie

But it seems I have to know
What makes me feel so

Down
Today
In the dumps

Rather not know
But I have too

Somehow.

By [omgOMEGA] More of mine at Carrot's Poems

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Your Toy

What am I to you?
A toy? A whore,
To come to when you're alone,
Then leave in the dark?
That's not fair.
All I wanted was for you to care.
I could point fingers,
Say "You started it!"
But I should have ended it then.
I knew this was how it would be,
Knew you'd pass right by me
Without stopping to glance
At the young girl
Who held you when you were cold,
Stayed with you when you were alone,
Tried to cheer you when you were down.
No, not now that you've got a proper girl,
One who would look down her nose at me.
You can't let her know about me,
Unless it's to call me one of your "mistakes",
And promise her you'll never do that again.
I was just your toy, your whore,
Something to make you feel better
Till you got a real lady.
I don't want to pity me
And say "Oh poor thing!
Let's give you some money,
Give you a hug, then send you off."
I don't mind being forgotten, really.
What I really want is love.

Written by [Your Favorite Stranger]

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Misunderstood   


Why does this keep happening
Why am I always brought back to this
The point of collapsing
As depression and pain fill me
Because my life is pointless
I get nothing from it
Nothing but pain and misery
No one understands
No one ever will

I guess I'm just
The misunderstood
That's all I am
I don't matter
I will not make a difference
In life or death
As i sit silent in the darkness
Watching the world
I fade away
Without even a goodbye
Nobody cares
So I continue to fade
To nothing

[The Misunderstood]
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Prozac

Slipping into wonderland
Breathing blood and heroin
Seeing birds and dogs alive
Smiling laughing hiding their eyes
From you as you stumble in
You’re slipping into wonderland
Where the bunnies all laugh and grin
Drinking remarkable amounts of gin
The hate you had has changed a bit
Into an uncontrollably hilarious hit
You can’t seem to grasp
A firm grip on reality
That has slipped away from you
You’ve slipped into wonderland
Where your life is different
Not at all the same
You’ve become something different
Not so sure if it’s good or bad
Just different
Now when you open your blood caked eyes
You see love and woodland creatures
Heroin needles laying on the floor
Pain lying in your soul
But you can’t grasp the meaning
Because you slipped into my wonderland
Where the creatures are all happy
Laughing and not so sappy
Rivers made of chocolate syrup
Lands of gummy bears
Skittles falling from the sky
Ouch a needles in your eye
No one told you this would happen
When you took that pill
This world has changed
So happy
All for you to share
With the people you once hated
From the little pill
Who new such a little thing
With a little name
Only five letters long
Prozac
The pill of choice
For dying homicidal maniacs

Written by [Ego Diligo Tu]My newest poem..Like it? I have a book of them for sale at http://www.lulu.com/content/159723 (yes I know shameless self promotion but I need to go to college!)

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A Skater's Life

When you live to die,
you live for the hell of it,
not really knowing why,
and then you disappear from the living,
your spirit has been denied.

When you die to live,
you try to save yourself,
because you expect life when you don't give,
you're a disgrace to yourself,
you don't deserve to live.

Whether you live to die,
Or die to live,
those two I defy,
this poem you have to overrate,
because I'm a psycho guy,

And I live to skate.

Copyright ©2005 Christopher Scott Kahle ([tenshi-ryuu])

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Wondering

Sometimes I wonder,
As I'm lying in my bed,
If I will wake to all the birdsong
Chiming in my head
If I will wake to see your smile
Or if I will take another breath

And if I don't awake
To your smile or all the birds
Will my dreams have all come true?
Will I have ever escaped
This cruel world?
Will there be a Heaven and a Hell
Is this world just a fantasy
How can I tell?

Will I sing another song
Or hear the music played
Will I get to say goodbye
To you and all the friends I've made
Before I go, and before my time ends?

But then I hear your voice
Just from down the hall
And remember everything will be OK
Because you'll guide me through it all
You won't let me fail,
And you'll catch me if I fall

Written by [Let it all out]

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Secrets Of Bethany

She walks around with her shoulders weighed down
Nobody knows her, nobody's found
Her secret out: who she really is behind her eyes,
The one she becomes whenever she cries.
The girl she's hidden from public view,
Showing her only to a very few.
She wishes her family would accept her, the real her;
Not the fake, perfect girl with the smile so sure.

You're supposed to be able to be yourself
Around your family if nobody else.
But no: people who don't even know her would accept her more readily:
Her family would disown her.
Her friends, we know her, only we see
How dearly, how strongly she wants to be free
To be herself, yeah, that's who she wants to be.

Lots of people become someone else
Because they want to, they're scared of themselves,
Of being too dorky, or maybe not cool;
Of being called a freak or the loser from school.
She becomes someone else
Not out of choice or even on whim:
If they saw what we see, they'd chop off her limb
On the family tree.
So keep it a secret, that's the key.

By [Your Favorite Stranger]

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Dead Inside

Your mindless taunts.
Your cruel words.
Your ugly ways.
And the common herd.


My ugly hair.
My spotty face.
My over-sensitive brain.
My life is a waste.


They all add up.
To quicken the ride.
And all these things.
Make me dead inside.

By [omgOMEGA]

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Suicide Story

Her cheeks were sticky with tears
Her eyes were bloodshot and frightened
Her hair was lank and greasy
Her face from fear was whitened

Now you see before you
The pain and depression you caused
Now we all deplore you
Before you hit, could you not have paused?

This is my suicide letter
The letter I leave clenched in my hand
Perhaps this way it is better
To leave my hourglass with no sand

I hope it's quick and painless
To take those final pills
The sheet of my life was not stainless
And this death was not my will

Their words, and crimes, they caused it
That's what lead me to death
And every time they hit me
I moved closer to my last breath

This is my suicide letter
The letter to tell you all why
Perhaps this way it is better
Rendevouz at the palace in the sky.

by [omgOMEGA]

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Chocolate

Deep and sweet, rich and warm:
Like two pools of chocolate
That I could feast my eyes on forever
And yet never get sick.
Ah, such delicious sights are your eyes,
I could look into them and drown in happiness,
Never leaving their wonderful seas.
I could gaze without ceasing into the myriad of thoughts:
Laughter, which brings creases and bright light,
Makes your sides hurt and your face turn red.
Earnesty, wide open with pure emotion
And the sure truth of your feelings.
Anger, a frightening fire burns, scorching and crackling
Over all evils, and the injustices befalling those you love.
Passion, hard and soft, hard with an intense want,
And softened by a loving tenderness.
Craziness, eyes dancing wildly with the fever of madness,
Your madness, happy, high, drunk off the wonders of life.
Love, a passion, a laughter, an earnesty, a beautiful thing:
The strongest power swims merrily in your eyes.
All these plus multitudes of wordless feelings
Are in the spectrum of emotions of your eyes.
I could sit and stare into those handsome brown orbs
Till time ended and feel as though I weren't missing a thing
By allowing the world to pass me by.
For who in heaven would envy those on earth?
With all their worry and time and constrictions,
When in heaven, who knows of worry? Time? Constrictions?
So allow me to remain within this cozy spell you weave around me,
That makes time halt, and minds speak unhindered.
Allow me to remain within this sacred veil of love,
And stay safe, behind the shield of our locked gazes.

[Your Favorite Stranger]

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Dangerous Addictions

Dizziness, nightmare's alive, floor's the ceiling;
All these colors twirling, conjealing,
Makes my head hurt, makes my body numb--
Not numb enough: the pain inside is making me dumb.
A beast with a knife, a man with a gun:
Where are these nightmares coming from?!
Now that my mind is clear of the haze,
The creatures inside are out of the cage.
I cannot hide:
They stalk me down, cause pain inside.
The demon's knife twists sharp in my gut,
I crawl for the door, but the door slams shut.
The man with the gun, a shot to my side:
I'm far beyond tears, screaming more than I cried.
Waves of hot and cold, fire burns ice:
Ice can't freeze the furnace that eats at my mind.
Whimpering, begging for someone to join me,
Howling out hoarsely my loud but unheard plea.
Just bring me back, back to my sweet insanity;
Back to arms that would always cradle me!
For here, I am lost; alone, I am scared,
Distortion of the senses, I'm seeing things in pairs.
When will it end? Oh, give me a gun!
Without you, my one, there's no place I could run
Where they wouldn't find me.
And without you inside me,
Without you to guide me, and without you behind me,
I'll scream in this torture till I'm all broken up,
When you were forced to go, I should've spoken up.
Well, I'm speaking now, screaming so loud
I can't hear myself, like it's over a crowd.
Flames in my brain, knives in both sides:
Through my pain sodden mind, I wonder, Have I died,
And gone on to hell, where such demons reside?
Not alone as I though: these voices surround me,
I hear you, and turn, thinking you've found me.
I crawl toward your voice, seeking your face,
Then skreech like a hellion: a corpse in its place!
Sobbing now, I curl tight in a ball,
Shuddering, heaving, I feel myself fall.
Fall farther and faster than ever I've gone,
Far past the sweet realm of oblivion.
Last thought before I lose all control:
Taking you away, they took my soul.

[Your Favorite Stranger]

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Murder On the Walls

She sits as quiet as murder
With a crayon in her hand
She draws the images in her mind
Of a murderous land

She sits unsmiling throughout
As she sketches murder on the walls
Drowning, death and destruction reign
She's broken all the rules

She sits mesmerized by her scribbles
And they seem to come alive
For while there's murder on the walls
She has power, and she has their lives.

[omgOMEGA]

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Rain.

sit here by the window
Watching the droplets fall
Blocking out the whole world
Not hearing it at all

I am in my very own world
Where all is peace and still
And I can travel there quite easily
Sitting on my window sill

Patt'ring on the ground
Hitting on the pane
I sit still and quietly
List'ning to the rain

Treas'ring every minute
Collecting every drop
Watching passers-by
Taking cover in the shops

For this time I'm peaceful
And my very soul is calm
This feeling of inner-joy
And that I'm safe from all harm

Don't let the storm clouds slacken
Don't let it ever stop
Let me stay here so calm
Collecting every drop

I sit here by the window
Watching the world go by
And dread the time of coming
When there is a clear sky.

[Sierra Hotel India Tango]

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Pardon Me (For Loving You)

Woke up this morning,
Broken hearted...
I've lost the will to live...
I've loved you since forever...
And given you
All i had to give...
But now you take away
This gift i gave to you...
Pardon me, for loving you...

You broke my heart,
You destroyed my soul...
You ripped me up,
Took me apart...
Swallowed me whole...
Isn't that fucked up???
So now i say this to you...
For all the things I said..
Pardon me for loving you...

Get out of my heart...

[Daemeon Arkenyon Zane]

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A Poem For Ryan

You told me all these things
like that I could count on you
Then when you knew everything about me
I found none of it was true
Everything you told me was another bigger lie
You're literally psychotic
The reason you're hyper
is because you're usually high
So you finally couldn't take it
and told me to get lost
that my problems don't concern you
and pretty much go f*ck off
You make about 15
to my suicidals and cutters
You say you won't forget me
but it seems you've already closed the shutters
You sit in your room with your pins
and your angst, your suicidal thoughts,
and your known to be "sins"
While you wait until morning,
so you can do it all again
You'll do this for five years
until you feel the day has come
The day you'll end your life
along with others...and possibly mine
Maybe we can even synchronize
the times we end our lives...

Written by: [Let it all out]

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Something For You

Something dark,
Something cold.
Something too young
To be so old.
Something painful,
Something hard.
Some new wound
That's now a scar.

Something crying,
Something sad.
Something, a memory
Of what you had.
Something angry,
Something black.
Something to stab you
In the back.
Something bloody,
Something abused.
Something left
From what you used.
Something biting,
Something dead.
Something to shoot you
In the head.
Something dirty,
Something mean.
Something slicing
At your spleen.
Something hidden,
Something low.
Something to deal
The final blow.
Something missing,
Something to seize,
Something to bring you
To your knees.
Something evil,
Something in spite.
Something you leave you
Lost in the night.
Something empty,
Something insane.
Something to bring you
Tears like rain.
Something ripping,
Something to choke.
Somethng to pay you
For the heart that you broke.
Something rotting,
Something sick.
Something to gnaw off
Your useless dick.
Something stolen,
Somethinig gone.
Something sharp
For you to die on.
Something locked up,
Something not found.
Something to bury you
Deep in the ground.
Something terrifying,
Something not free.
"Something"'s the song
To you from me.

written by [Your Favorite Stranger]

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You Make Me Want To

You make me want to cut,
Just slice the veins wide open,
And watch with closing eyes
As the blood drips from my fingers.
You make me want to scream,
So loud I’ll break my voice,
And make poeple cover their ears
If they come to see what’s wrong.
You make me want to cry,
Drown eveyrthing in tears.
Just sob until I’m all dried up
And my eyes are red and swollen.
You make me want to fight,
Scream and yell and punch and hurt.
Hit everything I see.
Just strike out at everyone.
You make me want to break things,
Just throw them at the wall.
Tear things apart into tiny pieces,
Smash glass into shards on the floor.
You make me want to get high;
Smake some weed and forget about you.
Take some pills, take a trip,
Get shot up and get away.
You make me want to hurt you,
Just break you up inside.
Cut you open, tear you apart.
Give you all these scars.
You make me want to hate you,
See the fire in my eyes?
You make me want to hate you...
But I can’t.

Written By [Your Favorite Stranger]

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Metaphor for life

Driving down the road....
There’s nowhere to go,
So I crank up the music,
Let it play....
Maybe I’ll relax today.


Missed a turn awhile back,
but I don’t mind.
It’s just a metaphor for life...
I passed it by...


Woke up today....
I felt only sadness...
I don’t know why
but I did.


It seems to me
life’s passed me by....
I know it did.


Pain, rage, hate, love;
I cant feel it....
it’s not the same...
anymore.


Driving down the road....
Two in the morning,
Bit I didn’t care.
Cranked up the music,
tried to let it play,
but the sadness inside me,
took all the joy away.


Went to sleep...
At least I tried.
Something inside me
felt like it had died.
I don’t know why....


Seems to me,
it shouldn’t be,
but it is.
And it’s because of me....


When I die,
I know I’ll be,
somewhere that’s better
than where I am now.
Pain, rage, hate, and love,
will cease to be.
It’s all empty....


This is a metaphor for life...
A future that just might be...
Tell me I’m lying...
Tell me it’s all a dream.


I don’t even want to be,
the way I am,
but it’s just me....


Metaphor for life...
the future as I know it will be.
Sometimes I sleep....
crank up the music...
Try to relax...
Cuz I know what will be....
In the future, we will
cease to be.

Written by [Daemeon Arkenyon Zane]

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Untitled

He prefered to be lied to...
Just as long as he could lie next to you...
Believe that he was the only one with you...
He needed to be lied to....
All he wanted was a life with you...
Something that he could hold on to...
Now he's left without you...
What the hell should he do?
Raped me, beat me, destroyed me...
And I just stood there watching you...
All the pain that you've caused me...
I will inflict upon you...

Written By [Daemeon Arkenyon Zane]

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Another day


My cat ran away
She just packed up the other day
Mewed and said goodbye
Walked away while I cried
I saw her swish her tail and pause
I sat and wondered what was the cause
She turned her head and looked at me
Told me shed stay if I was pleased
I ofcourse told her yes
But youd never guess
With what strength she came running back
Jumped up onto me and droped her pack
I'll leave another day
Was all she could say
And with that we sat and played.

By: [Ego Diligo Tu] Their jamie heres one from me but its not dark at all odd for me..

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He Loved Her

He loved her so,
But she would never get to know...
He started to cry inside...
In all the days they shared
She never knew he cared...
Because he died last night.

Oh, how much it hurts,
To never make your love known...
It's always so damned lonely...
You give away your heart and soul
Just so you dont feel alone,
And they never know....

They never know...

She found him on the floor,
Cryin', cuz she wont see him anymore
She never said she loved him...
She always him to know
That in her heart she loved him so
But she never got the chance...

Oh, how much it hurts,
To never make your love known...
It's always so damned lonely...
You give away your heart and soul
Just so you dont feel alone,
And they never know....


By the infamous, psychologically disturbed, [Daemeon Arkenyon Zane]

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Human Canvas

Will you be my human canvas?
Let me paint my life on you?
With vibrant pinks and bright green blues?
Will you sit still and let me began
A master peice that will never end?
It trails from head to toe
And then around once more
It'll happen quick like shooting abow
But don't worry this won't leave you sore
Slowly let the paints dry
Shh don't cry
There just mending to your skin
Their sinking in and marking you for this sin
It's okay I just wanted to thank you
For letting me make you so askew
Your a walking controversey
Everyone can agree
They really wont let you be
So just come on home
I'll shelter you and protect you to the bone
Quiet can't you hear the rain?
It's washig away all their pain
No don't go outside you fool!
Look at the paint its begging to pool!
All my hard work its gone!
So long I took
It was finaly done
And now your let yourself off the hook
I'm crying now
As my painting dyes
I want to know how
How you couldn't cry
You were something beautiful
Something grand
Now your just sourful
Now your just secondhand

By: [Ego Diligo Tu] So who wants to be my canvas? [Daemeon Arkenyon Zane] how about you?

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